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[Feb. 4th, 2010|10:34 pm] |
OHMYGAWD I JUST HAD TO POST THIS UP LARH. ahhahaa. thanks to the boyfriend, im in love with this song and the dance steps. its my msg ringtone too btw, hahahahhaha. and i especially dig the head swinging movement! Dong Woon would have to be my favourite (: |
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[Jan. 30th, 2010|01:45 am] |
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Dear Muhammad Ridzwan Yusri,
Love, Me. |
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[Jan. 28th, 2010|05:12 pm] |
sup cupcakes. i miss this space of mine. everytime i log into this eljay of mine, my mind would just freeze and then i'll just shut this thing down. work have been ogay i guess. its really nt fun at all when i have to keep conversing in mandarin just cause of the majority. but lucky for me, i would say that my mandarin is fluently good. many parents are impressed! hahaha.
as always, ridzwan have been nothing but the greatest. although there were a few/alot of times where i just feel like strangling him or just give him a bitchslap (HAHA!) but i wudnt do that, so no worries aite baby? (: december was a real bitch. it was when i REALLY start to realise that although people see us as one, we're still 2 different people, who have different need and wants. i wudnt go into details, but i really need to start realising that ridzwan is his own person. ive made a promise towards him, and im gonna stick to it ; the one thing that i'll never do, and will never do is to hold him back from anything. yes baby, i know i was being selfish but isnt everyone too? I believe that each and every human being is selfish, what varies is the ability to contain this nasty quality and act differently. This being said, I do not believe it is necessarily a bad thing to be selfish. It is one of the best defenses one has for protection and also can help motivate someone to commit acts that will make a difference. Yet, if selfishness is our motivation, why do we love?
Love is essentially a handicap, preventing us from fully protecting our fragile hearts. When you love someone, you give them a part of you and hope they will not break it apart. Yet, so often it happens, we fall in love and then we get hurt. Do we selfishly crave the thrill of falling hard for someone, the mystery and the blind hope that things will work out? Do we throw ourselves at the wrong people because we selfishly think it is all about us? Do we break the hearts of others to lessen the chance that they will break ours? Do we break our own hearts for that reason? I think in falling in love, we are able to experience such strong feelings that leave us breathless. Everything we feel is magnified, the happiness is so much greater and the hurt is so much more painful. We can feel alive and like we have a purpose. Love is like a drug, it alters reality. Sometimes it is like a bad trip, you want out as soon as possible. Sometimes it is amazing and you never want to come down. We fall in love to feel things for ourselves, thus love is a selfish thing, sometimes felt alone and sometimes mutually shared. Often times, people fall in love with someone who wants nothing to do with them, pushing themselves into their life. If you can fall in love with someone who does not want you to, thus putting a burden on them, how is it not selfish? This is just my theory. I do not know much about love or life in general, but this is my perspective. I am a human being, I am selfish and even though I hate to admit it, I love. and in my case, i love muhammad ridzwan yusri.
does anybody get me?
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[Jan. 24th, 2010|09:31 pm] |
 Lets hope our plan for the year 2012 will happen. insyallah, kalau Tuhan menentukan (: |
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[Jan. 22nd, 2010|11:51 pm] |
 HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY MY LOVE. with each birthday that passes, you mean so much to me. youre now not just a year older, but a year wiser, a year better. thinkin of you with love on your birthday and wishing you everything that brings you happiness today and always. with each year i'll love you more. remember that your best years are still ahead of you and i,ll be there for every up and down and in between. because youre th gift in my life, i give you the gift of my love. hope this day is as special as you are. again, Happy 21st Birthday Muhammad Ridzwan Yusri sayangku (: |
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[Jan. 17th, 2010|03:54 pm] |
youre the only one who makes my heart ache, but in a good way. others may get sick and tired of hearing me talking about you. but my heart will never get sick of loving you. wo yao gen ni yong yuan zai yi qi baobei. yi bei zhi.     and let me present you with 2 of the cutest thing in my class. Alastair and Mikel Han!!     and this is how i spend my saturday. better be worth it! HAHAHAHA!  |
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[Jan. 11th, 2010|10:19 pm] |
 i love you enough to want to protect you, care for you, guide you, hold you, comfort you, listen to you and cry to you and with you.
i love you enough to be completely comfortable around you, act coy around you, and never have to hide anything from you and be myself with you.
i love you enough to share my sentiments, dreams, goals, fears, hopes and worries - my entire life with you.
i love you enough to want the best for you, to wish for your successes, and to hope for the fulfillment of all your endeavors.
i love you enough to keep my promises to you and pledge my loyalty and faithfulness to you.
i love you enough to cherish your friendship, adore your personality, respect you values, and see you for who you truly are.
i love you enough to miss you incredibly when we're apart, no matter what length of time and regardless of the distance.
i love you enough to believe in our relationship, to stand by it through the worst times, to have faith in our strength a couple, and to never give up on us.
i love you enough to spend the rest of my life with you, be there for you when you need or want me, and NEVER, EVER want to leave you or live without you.
i just love you this much muhammad ridzwan yusri.
another one of those karaoke sessions with the other half. cant see anything but just listen lah okay. hahha (:
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[Jan. 8th, 2010|11:38 am] |
 just like this rainbow, u add colours to my world muhammad ridzwan yusri. they say that th best time to say that you've finally found th right one, is when you've stop looking. and i dare say that you are my right one. to love is to have a heart. but to be in love, is to make it beat. and you baby, make my heart beat. i love you muhammad ridzwan yusri. Happy 28th to Us ♥ |
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[Jan. 1st, 2010|04:18 pm] |
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this year have been really fulfilling cause ive fallen in love in something new - teaching. started the year with CherieHearts, but due to some circumstances, i just HAD to leave. i actually love the place, the kids, the teachers, the environment. but also, there are some things that i hate. its hard to leave the babies but its quite easy at some point cause i know that the grass is greener on the other side. ive always believed that its better to learn without experience, than to experience without learning. alhamdullilah, i got an another job within a week. and im definitely lovin it. im blessed to have a supervisor who's pushing me to my limits that i never thought i have. im blessed to have colleagues who are always offering me a helping hand whenever i needed one. special thanks to Joanne, Maya, Jenny, Diana and Eileen. you guys have definitely made me a better teacher (: ive always thought that being a form teacher is gonna be hard and boy was i right. but all th hard work's worth it, especially when i have parents who are so understanding, supportive and really really sweet. i am ssssooo gonna miss my current N1's :(
pictures in the slides are some of the memorable events that took place in my life durin 2009.
♥ working with CherieHearts.
♥ ridzwan being away in taiwan for a month for his National Service.
♥ surprised sending off and also valentines' day.
♥ baby's P.O.P from SISPEC.
♥ working at Ace@Work!
♥ my 20th birthday surprise at the staircase.
♥ my cornea infection on my birthday -.-
♥ death of a friend/colleague :'(
♥ sister dian's wedding!! (:
♥ first real fun memorable getaway at east coast park.
♥ our long awaited 2nd couple phone.
♥ our 3rd raya with my family side.
♥ sedot-endon clan's family day!
♥ teacher's day celebration at the zoo.
♥ YEAR END CONCERT!!
reading through the list of things that have taken place, i would say tt 2009 have definitely been good. i got a feeling tt 2010 is gonna be better for alot of reason (: and just like many other, i have a few resolutions in mind. hehe.
♥ retake my o levels.
♥ get some presciption from th doctor. (dont care what boyf says i wanna do this!! hehehehe)
♥ DO NOT PROCRASTINATE!! DO MY LESSON PLANS AND EVALUATION EVERY SINGLE BLOODY DAY!!
♥ finish my family and BMT loans.
♥ get our(ridzwan & i) own personal digital camera.
♥ new clothes, new hair, new shoes, new bag.
♥ get a wallet! ( ive NEVER had a wallet as i keep losing it.)
♥ start giving/making monthsarry gifts for my better half(just smthg personal that me and ridzwan wanna do).
♥ save at least $1.2K or more in our joint acc by the end of the year. hehehehehhehehhe.
♥ buy at least one book in every 3 months.
so there you have it. of course there are more but i'll just save that for myself. hoping that 2010 will be a good year for me, my boy, my family, my friends and to th rest of you! Happy new Year!
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